For about a year now, Ryan and I have felt that we're in a time of transition. We had no idea where God was taking us on this journey; we only knew that He had a plan and that He was working toward building our trust in Him. We sold our home, Ryan began applying for jobs locally and in other states, and we waited. Waited and prayed and wondered. While we always knew for certain that God had a perfect plan for our lives and that He knew exactly what the future held for us, there were times when being in such a state of flux with the future totally unknown was very taxing. We prayed. We asked friends to pray. We waited. Several times opportunity knocked and we got excited, thinking that finally we were getting a glimpse of what God had in store. And several times our hopes were dashed and we were left discouraged and confused. It was truly an exercise in trusting God.
Well, I am excited to say that God has, in His perfect timing and ultimate wisdom, revealed to us what He has been working on all this time. Ryan has been hired as the Athletic Director at Skyline High School. It is an amazing job for him, and he feels so excited and blessed by this new opportunity and challenge. Several times he has remarked, "My career is high school sports; how cool is that?!" I am so excited for him, and for our family. We've also signed a lease on a little house in a neighborhood that we're really excited to live in...it's exactly the kind of community we were looking for.
After Ryan was hired by SHS, we were able to trace back all the steps that lead us to this point. We were awestruck by how long and in what ways God has been orchestrating this plan for us. We always knew He had a plan, but to be able to look back and pinpoint specific things that He set into place to get us here was both humbling and encouraging. What tangible proof of how God works for the good of those who love Him. What concrete evidence of how intimately involved He is in the details of our daily lives. What a tremendous blessing to think of the loving anticipation with which God has wrapped this gift for us. I am truly awestruck by how He works in our lives. It is so important to me that I hold fast to this example of His planning. What comfort this journey might bring the next time we face a disappointment of some sort, a plan that didn't go as we expected. Knowing now, as positively as we do, that God is so actively involved in every step of our journey, is such an amazing gift. What an awesome God we have that He does not sit on high and watch from afar as we stumble along the paths of life, but instead, reaches down and shapes the journey to bring us far greater than what we could ask or imagine. There have been things that we have specifically prayed for during the past year (longer) that He has not given us because He had something better in store. Yes, those answers of "no" to our prayers were difficult and confusing and hurtful. But now...now we understand, and it takes the sting out of those disappointments along the way. I am grateful today that God doesn't always give us what we ask for. I'm grateful for what so many consider "unanswered prayers" that are really answers of either "no" or "wait." I hope that I can come back and bask in the glory of this promise kept the next time I get one of those answers that confuses, disappoints, or hurts me. My small group and I prayed several weeks ago for a specific job that Ryan wanted (and didn't get)...and though we prayed specifically for that job, one of my friends suggested that we pray for that job or "something better." What a blessing to now have such concrete knowledge that when God says "no" it's because He knows what "better" is. I love this quote from
A Journey to Victorious Praying: "God's will is what I would want if I had all the facts." What a blessing that God has all the facts, has the ability set His perfect plan into motion, and has the desire to take care of me.
This year has been a journey. And I know that it's by no means over, nor is it the last big journey God will take us on. It has been at times exhausting, discouraging, disappointing, confusing, and unsettling. And I know that there will more times like those in the future. But right now I am determined to remember what God did
this time. I am full of joy at the fact that God is so actively at work in my life, even when (maybe especially when) I can't see what He's doing!
Thank you, God, for this journey. Thank you for carrying me through the hard parts so that I could experience what you had planned from the beginning. Thank you for this exercise in trusting You, and thank you for again proving yourself trustworthy! Thank you for this new job for Ryan, for the new home for our family, and for the new chapter you're opening in our lives. We are in awe, we are encouraged, and we are grateful!